Today on my local board, my whole situation with Anthony got called MUD.
I am literally pushing through hell right now, and they get to say its MUD? yes, I screwed up. I married him. I didn't think this was going to happen. I really didn't expect it. I'm so fucking pissed off at people right now. Nobody who isn't here in real life knows what I'm going through. Nobody knows how much it hurt to be told that I had a month to change and then change his mind and leave me that night. I'm tired of crying. I need support right now instead I get told that I'm making all this up and I'm crazy. My heart is broken. I'm barely making it through and I get treated like this.
Whatever. If this is how its going to be then why should I even bother with thebump anymore? I didn't do anything to be treated this way. Yes, I'm a little sensitive to how I was treated over the internet. But this is like pouring salt into my wounds. I didn't deserve this. I didn't deserve to be dumped like I'm nothing. It kills me knowing that hes off doing whatever and I'm here curled up in a ball, my heart breaking over and over again and sobbing...What gives someone the right to hurt someone like this? I trusted him not to do this again. And he did. I HAVE to be strong for my baby. He walked out on us.
Yes, it was a few days after we got MARRIED. But, obviously he wasn't ready for it.